NXIVM didn’t teach.

NXIVM was the organization that held everything else. Underneath NXIVM was ESP (The educational arm) and then too many other unique “companies” or groups that acted in and of their own accord while using the foundations learned in ESP.

The foundations we learned in ESP allowed us to explore more deeply in all the other organizations, from SOP to Jness to The Knife, EXO/ESO, The Ethicist, Ultima etc, etc, etc…Each organization was it’s own entity with it’s own unique purpose. Each unique purpose was as intriguing and inspiring as a unique purpose can be (if you’ve experienced a unique purpose you know what I’m talking about).

So really someone could talk all day about what they learned in any one of those unique organizations, connected by ESP and under NXIVM. One could (and most did) also take ESP courses and go back into the world equipped with more tools to succeed.

And of course this is where there’s a lot of energy, “SUCCEED”! What does it mean, what does success mean…we talk a little about this in ESP. You only need to talk about it a little, it means whatever you want it to mean. ESP helped you in whatever you wanted to be helped at…of course one of the challenges, more apparent now, is that many people didn’t know what they wanted to be helped at.

There’s a great quote in “Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance”,

The truth knocks on your door and you say, “Go away, I’m looking for the truth”, so it goes away, Puzzling.

Robert Pirsig

And I think it describes most humans and because most humans are the same humans that got involved in ESP and NXIVM, most people in ESP didn’t really know what they were looking for and didn’t really know how to look for it if they did know what they were looking for. ESP lit a path and gave you tools to discover. I can imagine certain responses from the reader at this point…just tell us what you learned…tell us… But it’s not that simple.

If ESP teaches Spanish and you ask what did you learn, what were you taught and I said, Spanish. That would be acceptable? Right? But not here and maybe that’s fine, but more to say that’s it’s difficult, precise and complex and that what you’re looking for, dear reader, is not an answer like…Spanish. Right? You want to know how we learned “Spanish” and what “Spanish” is for and why “Spanish”…right?

I’m not sure I’m up to the task because it’s an enourmous freaking task but I’ll try.

We learned that there was more to life than what we thought.
We learned that there was more to life that what we felt.
We learned how to see what was underneath thoughts, underneath feelings.

We learned how to use our human machines. That’s what we have, after all. Most of us don’t treat them that way, and some of us, treat machines badly and treat our bodies the same.

We learned that the captain of the ship is not, often, who we think it is. We learned how to settle more comfortably and reliably into our own captain’s chair.

How does a baby learn language?
Tell me, exactly how?

We went through an experiential process, scientific in the sense that’s it reproducible and verifiable…at least as far as I can tell and as far as we were able to see through thousands and thousands of points of data. Data taken from brain energy readings (very common and simplistic and agreed to) and thousands of anonymos surveys taken after every intensive and every new objective. The FBI has these now, I’m sure. Ask for their release. I was one of the people who handled these surveys, no identifying info, people knew this and could write whatever they wanted and they did and in only the short duration I did, for the courses I did it for, it was over 90% and sometimes as high as 95% excellent feedback. Not good, not average, excellent.

But back to the question…what did we learn? What were we taught?

More to come…