The end of Horror
The worst of it
Is the hiding
It would be so much less painful
If it didn’t exist.
But it does
And I hid it
And I hide it away
I am a very suggestive person
And I’m also absorbent
And I have absorbed,
I have absorbed.
There is a struggle deeper
Than any struggle faced
Much greater lies ahead
Are not ready,
but we are prepared.
There is a chance Vortex
Of energy here
Do I follow with it and into it and learn to shape it.
Do I fight my way out by resigning, as I have always done.
Beneath the horror of yourself and your behaviors, is another self, clean and Crystal and strong.
And you have experienced so much pain that you can be a sage
And wear your tarnished coat with the clean one, and so, and like with all things, clean will tarnish.
Despite my inner horror
I move through
And the horror loses its edge.
It’s taken me some time and some pain to do this but the horror loses its edge.
The more I touch it the more it de- mystifies.
Good to keep in mind,
And maybe the idea underneath it all, is
It’s time for me to create my own reality.
I will no longer rely on the horror of the past to flavor my present