Grey Winter Lamentations

What is a coward
Am I one
I think I am
and then, immediately,
I recognize it.
Can anyone see
oh god, can everyone see.
Must I prostrate myself
at the feat of the heathen
and the most wretched.
What am I to do
with a world that is
indifferent to me
Standing to the side
speaking a language
but I don’t understand
and, no longer, even once,
looking my way.