For What…?

I don’t know how…

I trust that I am not a child
and therefor do not need
for better or for worst
to be treated like a child.

I trust that death is a part of life
and the no matter what I do
I can not avoid death
So there is no reason
no good reason
to hang on to the energy of fear
of death.

No matter how much I want it not to be true
one day my child will die
there is nothing I can do
it breaks my heart into smithereens
but he will die
or I will die
we will leave each other.

We will leave each other
We will leave each other
We will leave each other

This is as automatic
as breath

All that energy spent
so much energy spent
gone, ground away, burned up
pretending I am in control
of these things

I’m so terrified I run for office
I’m so terrified I yell at people
I’m so terrified I judge others
I’m so terrified I’m right

I’m so terrified I can’t put down
being right
I’m so terrified I can’t put down
being right

I wish the world would leave me alone
and soon enough, it will.
I do not wish to tell others what they
should do or shouldn’t do
I do not know
what you should or shouldn’t do

You shouldn’t hit someone in the face who hasn’t hit you in the face.
there…
That’s one.

But other than that – just look at what’s happening
just look at how much fear
was really underneath
so much fear underneath
so much fear underneath
we will give up everything we worked for
we will subscribe to the one with the
most fearful message
fear matching fear
fear exciting fear
fear feeding fear
Weill listen to the most fearful voice
we will give up everything.

And for what?