The Purpose of the Heart

Maybe a gift…

To be shown
how you do not fit
and to see
you do not fit
and to feel
you do not fit
and to see,
finally,
how underneath
all of your
persuasion
and dancing
and performance
you, so badly,
want to fit.

The pain of it
is of a different quality
of a secret quality
a quality not spoken off,
kept in the dark places
kept at bay
by the performance
of trying to fit
and resenting the trying.

The ebb and flow of the ego
resenting that
which is not of itself
resenting that which
threatens
it’s facaded walls

The ebb and flow of the self
resenting the performance
resenting the denial
of the self
in disbelief.

How can you forgo your natural self
in the face of such primacy
of feeling.

In the face of such knowledge.

How is it,
in the face of such knowledge
and feeling of yourself
and your deepest secrets
you can still
perform
and so desperately
try to fit it
at the cost of everything.

I am so heartbroken of myself
so heartbroken.

But I am not lost.
No.

After all, as the wise woman says,
what else is a heart for?

Tags: , , ,

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

myserenewords

Seeking Solace in the Horizon of Life & Beyond.

Phoebe, MD: Medicine + Poetry

Health • Inspiration • Life

The Wild Heart of Life

"He was unheeded, happy, and near to the wild heart of life." ...James Joyce

Wild Like the Flowers

Rhymes and Reasons

Inner Peace

True wealth is the wealth of the soul

SUBDUED FLAMBOYANCE

A blog by Dr. Abhinav Majumder

Life...Take 2

I hope that someone sees this page and decides not to give up...

Otrazhenie

Reflection

thedihedral.wordpress.com/

Climbing, Outdoors, Life!

Be Inspired..!!

Listen to your inner self..it has all the answers..

Elan Mudrow

Smidgens

Bitter Gertrude

Blogging about Culture, Equity, and the Arts since 2013

Engage!

Critical Dharma for Thinking Minds

Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha

Musings and books from a grunty overthinker

%d bloggers like this: