Death Will Not Save You

It’s hard to get to,
but I can feel it…
the nugget is there
underneath the soiled laundry
and high fives
I didn’t think it would be so hard
to find it
what with everything that’s happening in the world.
It seems it should be more obvious…

But it isn’t.

If you stand with open arms
you will meet the sword
what other option is there
what other option is there

And maybe then, that’s the point
and the thing we don’t understand
maybe we’ve become so attached
to our condition
we’ve forgotten our own land.

But if I choose to open up
and then, my lord, I’m wrong
and my body goes away
and that’s all there ever was
in my dying breath
what horror does betray
as my eyes go dark
my regret will win the day
and maybe then
at the last second
I will finally feel some peace

Or maybe that’s the problem
with no solution’s ease
I want there to be peace
I want to feel the peace
there’s no such thing as peace
until death is at your feet
and then you’re done
your time is up
your balance sheet comes due
that is when you’ll understand
just who is leading who
and if you think that you feel sadness now
and confusion and remorse
if you think you suffer your sins now
just wait

Just wait, there’s more.